I haven’t updated this shit in a while and I really wanted to write something positive now, but I just can’t. To be honest, I don’t feel positive at all. The range of my emotions is just the opposite.
I feel lost and insecure.
I feel scared.
I feel like I’m doing something wrong.
I feel every part of me wrong.
I feel hopeless.
I feel helpless to change things.
I feel a lack of something.
I feel a lack of someone.
I feel guilt.
Guilt, because it’s always been me. Me in the centre of the Universe. I’m too self-absorbed at times, unable to think about anybody else. This is wrong.
I feel so confused, I really don’t know what to think.
This is the problem. There are too many things I DON’T KNOW.
I guess I’m just
It’ stupid to say it right now. It’s one of the things I do wrong. But there is no other way of explaining things. And I believe that by these words I put the beginning of a new end.
I’m really sorry, K.